tone [F] When [A#]I look back, [Am]tracing fingertips over [A#]plastic bags [Am]Thinking, "I wish I [F]could [Em]extrapolate some small  [Am]intention Or [Em]maybe just get your [Am]attention for a [F]minute or [G]two" [A#]Will I die? Or will I get to that [Am]ten-year mark? Where I b [A#]eat the extinction of [Am]telomeres? And [Gm]if I do, will you be there with me, Father, [A7]Sister, Brother? [A#]Charlie, stop smoking Caroline, will you be [C]with me? Will the baby be alright? Will I [A#]have one of [C]mine? Can I [A#]handle it even if I do? It's said that [C]my mind Is not fit, or so they said, to [A#]carry a child [F]I guess I'll be [Dm]fine It wasn't my [A#]idea, the cocktail of things that twists neurons in [Gm]side But without them, I'd [C]die They say there's irony in [A7]the music, it's a tragedy, [A#]I See [Gm]nothing Greek [C]in it Give me a mausoleum in Rhode Island with Dad, Grandma, Grandpa, and [A7]Dave Who hung himself real [A#]high In the Natio [Gm]nal [C]Park sky, it's a shame and I'm crying right [C#dim]now To [Dm]get to you, save you, if I take my [A7]life Find your astral body, put it [C]into my [G#dim]eyes Give you two seconds to [A#]cry Take you home, [C]I, I'll give you a blanket Your spirit can sit and watch [C#dim]TV by my [Dm]side 'Cause, baby, [G]I [C] Ran through a time when I felt you were [A7]doing it [A#]I couldn't handle it, I was in Monaco [A#]I couldn't hear what they said on the telephone [C]I had to sing for the prince in two hours [C]Sat in the shower Gave myself two [A7]seconds to [Gm]cry It's a [Gm]shame that we [C]die When I was fifteen, naked, next-door neighbors did a [F]drive-by Pulled me up by my waist, long [A#]hair to the [F]beach side I wanted [A#]to go out like you, swim with the fishes That [F]he caught on Rhode Island beaches But, sometimes, it's [Am]just [A#]not your time Caro [C]line, what kind of mother was she to say I'd end up in [A]institutions? All [A#]I wanted to do was kiss Aaron [C]Greene and sit [F]by The [Dm]lake, twisting [A#]lime into the drinks that [C]they made Have a babe at sixteen, the town I was [A7]born in, and [A#]died Aaron [Dm]ended up [C]dead and not me What the f^ck's wrong in your head to [F]send me away, never to come back? Exotic [C]places and people don't take the place [A7]of being your [A#]child I [A#m]give myself two seconds to [F]cry Let it [Dm]crash over [C]me Like the waves in the sea Call me Aphrodi [A7]te [A#] As they [C]bow down to me [Gm]Sunbather, [A]moon chaser, [A#]queen of empa [C]thy I give myself two [A7]seconds to [A#]breathe And go back to being a serene [C]queen I just needed two seconds to [A7]be [A#]me